Vague

—– Are you going somewhere?

—– No, just day dreaming.

—– With what?

—– With the day that I’m going to buy a ticket to somewhere and go without have any ideia of what is going to happen.

—– Why do you want to leave?

—– I don’t know.

—– Are you runing from something or somebody?

—– Maybe.

—– From what? Or from whom?

—– I’m not shure.

—– I don’t understand.

—– If I stay I’ll have a quiet and organized live.

—– And is that bad?

—– Yes.

—– Why?

—– Because I want to wake up every day without knowing what is going to happen; that way I might have my dreams coming true.

—– And why can´t your dreams come true here.

—– I didn’t say it can’t! But… is too safe. 

—– So do you want to feel afraid? 

—– No!

—– What do you want then?

—– I want to know the rest of the world. Is a big world you know.

—– I know that! Are you going alone?

—– Yes.

—– Don’t you feel afraid?

—– Oh, yes!

—– But you like that feeling, right?

—– No! I hate it!

—– So, stay.

—– I can’t.

—– Why? I don’t see anyone forcing you to do that.

—– That is because you can’t see what is inside of me; or because you can’t listen the voices in my head telling me to go.

—– You have voices in your head???

—– Yes! Everyone have, but only few people give them attention.

—– And what they said?

—– They said: go! 

—– Just that! Did you ask them why you should go?

—– It doesn’t work like that.

—– How does it work?

—– They don’t answer questions.

—– That is very rude of them.

—– Maybe.

—– It is going to be hard!

—– I know! If I wanted to be easy I would stay here.

—– Now you said something that I agree. 

—– Why don´t you agree with the others things I’ve said?

—– Is too confuse for me: voices. I don’t deal very well with those kind of thing.

—– Why?

—– Is too vague.

—– No is not.

—– Yes it is. Can you prove it?

—– Prove what?

—– That those voices are really there.

—– I don’t think so.

—– See, too vague. 

—– Can you prove that you are not gay?

—– What? Of course I’m not gay.

—– How do you prove it?

—– I can kiss you right now if you want; I already had many girlfriends.

—– That does’t prove anything.

—– So, how can I prove it?

—– You can´t.

—– I see your point, but it is not the same. 

—– Is not the same because you don´t wanted to be.

—– What are you saying now?

—– That things are only complicated or hard to understand when we wanted them to be

—– I couldn’t disagree more.

—– And that is your choice, right?

—– ???

—– You could agree with me if you wanted. 

—– But I don’t! Is not about want or not want; I just don’t. 

—– And who tells you that?

—– Nobody! I just…

—– You just know. 

—– ….

—– I’m not that vague now, am I?

—– Not too much.